Like any NHL goalie, I’ve had good games and bad games. And like any guy doing his job or just going about his day, sometimes those “bad games” or bad days turn into negative thoughts that won’t shut off. If those kinds of thoughts start taking over your life, as they did for me, I know where you’re coming from, and I have a few tips that have worked for me.

I had just had a career year; however, my mind only focused on the “bad” heading into the 1992-93 NHL season. It was my 10th year in the league, and NHL careers average around three years. So, I kept asking myself: “How much longer can I play at this level? How much longer will my career go on?”

We had two children at the time, and my wife, Donna, was pregnant with our third. So, that added a lot of pressure. Then the season started, and those questions in my head became louder and louder. The thoughts shifted from rational to irrational, “You can’t do this anymore. You’re not good enough to stay at this level any longer. There are a lot better goalies than you. Someone is going to take your job.” My thoughts had become very cluttered in my head.

By late November, I’d reached a breaking point. On December 1st, we had a neutral site game in Milwaukee, and even though I was feeling unglued, I somehow got it all together and pulled off a great game and was named the first star. 

That gave me some hope, but it only took a few days to go from being pretty good to the lousiest goalie in the league. My mental game affected my play, and I went into a slump that lasted almost two months.

Helping hands

Our head coach at the time was a guy by the name of Barry Melrose. He recognized that I was struggling—not physically, but mentally—and saw that I needed to talk to someone.

In January, Coach Melrose walked into the dressing room, followed by (famous life coach) Tony Robbins. It wasn’t all that unusual to have celebrities in the room after games—this was L.A., after all—but it didn’t often happen beforehand. 

They went into Barry’s office for a minute, then they called me in. My thinking had become so negative that I thought, “Why would Tony Robbins wanna meet the lousiest goalie in the league?”

Barry said, “Would you be willing to work with Tony so we can help you get out of this slump? I agreed. Then he asked, “Would it be ok if I sat in on the session? I wanna learn more about you.”

And I thought, “Man, that’s really cool that a man, my head coach, wants to understand me to help me get out of this slump.” 

What I liked about Tony is that he spoke like an athlete. We were swearing and having an authentic conversation. It wasn’t just a clinical thing where I told him what I was going through. “When you feel really lousy about yourself, who do you feel like?” he asked. “It can be a real person, a movie character, a cartoon character.” And I said, “Actually, if you really wanna know the truth, I feel like Fred Flinstone in Mr. Slate’s office.”

When I was a kid growing up, I loved watching the Flintstones. When Fred would go into Mr. Slate’s office, his boss would criticize him, and Fred would just keep shrinking in his chair. I told Tony and Barry that when I’m in the net, and I let in a goal, and then I let in another one and another one, I feel like I’m shrinking on the ice.

Tony asked, “When you feel really good about yourself, who do you feel like?” And I said, “General Norman Schwartzkopf,” the guy who led the U.S. in the Gulf War. With his shoulders back and his chin out, he always looked like he was in charge of everything. I felt like that when I was playing really well. I could single-handedly control a game, and that’s a pretty cool feeling. 

We worked on how I could get that control back, and we ended up deciding that I would have a laminated index card with notes on it. The first note was General Norman Schwartzkopf, and I’d look at this card before every single period I played.

I ended up playing another five years because of that transformation with Tony. I’m forever indebted to Barry for making the decision to take action to help me. 

Family ties 

My daughter, Kaitlin, was having her own mental health struggles, and before her diagnosis with anxiety and obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) in 2005, her life had become completely unmanageable. We took her to see a child psychologist in Calgary, and depending on how she was doing, she would see the doctor once or twice a week. 

After four years of therapy, Kaitlin came to us, out of the blue, and said, “Mom, Dad, I’m starting to have more good days than bad.” A lot of people can relate to that because that’s what we’re trying to do. We’re trying to have more good days than bad ones. 

I always tie this back to a conversation I had with Ron McLean about people around the world helping to create positive change for people living with mental health issues. Ron and I were texting back and forth, and then Ron, as he usually does, hit me with something brilliant: “Inner peace, what a quest.”

We’re all on a quest for inner peace and to have more good days than bad.

Troubles return, but this time it’s different

Fast-forward to the summer of 2019. I’ve been on Hockey Night in Canada for 21 years. But those same types of negative thoughts started creeping back into my mind: “How much longer can you do this? There are certainly better, younger and more talented broadcasters out there. You’ve had a good run, but it’s probably coming to an end.”

As the thoughts got louder, I recognized I was having irrational thoughts and that it was coming back to mental health. So, I started talking to a therapist, and it changed the course of my life. My first session was about an hour, and I cried the whole time. But I had to do it, it was really important work for me. I went once a week for months, and I’m happy to say that it changed my life in a better way. I’m more relaxed, and I now have the tools to help myself.

Tips to have more good days

There are a few things I’ve learned over the years through my mental health journey and supporting my daughter Kaitlin with her journey. It’s going to be different for everyone, so it really comes down to figuring out what works for you.

Take notice if there is a problem

Sometimes we get so focused on life or work it’s easy to push a mental health problem down and not really notice how often it keeps coming back up. Being able to recognize that something isn’t right is important.

There’s no shame in talking to someone

This is a big one. For me, it’s important to share and not keep everything bottled up inside. We all need someone to talk to. That may be a friend or a family member, and it may be a professional. If you’re struggling, you don’t need to struggle alone.

There’s no such thing as perfect

We can be our own harshest critics, so it’s good to know when you need to go easy on yourself. Sometimes things don’t work out the way you had hoped, and that’s ok. For my own mental health, I know there are times when I need to let go and walk away.

Talking about mental health is normal

Things are changing when it comes to conversations around mental health, and it’s an exciting time. It’s not like it used to be. Talking about mental health is normal. If you’re having a bad day, it’s ok to say you’re having a bad day. If you’re having a bad month, it’s ok to say that too. The more we talk about it, the more we see how common it is.

Finding what works for you

What works for me on a tough day may not work for you. You might have to try a few different things before figuring out what works. Here are a few things I like to do to help with my mental health:

  • I really like taking long walks. I can walk for 1-3 hours, and it helps me clear my head.
  • I like to go for a drive in the morning because it helps me feel relaxed and peaceful.
  • Sometimes when you’re struggling with mental health, you need to take a day off. For me, it’s the opposite. Working helps me stay focused and push out the negative thoughts. If I’m having a bad day, I prefer to go to work. But it’s different for everybody.
  • I use index cards to write down a few important words that help me feel more positive and more relaxed. I carry the index card around with me and look at it when I need to. Whatever you put on your card is personal to you; the words can be anything you want them to be. 

I can definitely say that there are more good days than bad. I’m learning to go easier on myself and take the time I need to support my own mental health. If you’re struggling, try not to ignore it and find someone you can talk to.

When you’re feeling good, who do you feel like? Share in the comments below.

Ebook 7 traits of the happiest & healthiest people

If you’re thinking about increasing your energy and waking up happy, we’ve got your back.

Download “7 Traits of the Happiest and Healthiest People” ebook right now.

You’ll also be signing up for DCM’s monthly health tips. Unsubscribe anytime.